Dreaming With A Broken Heart…
Genesis 37:3-10 (Amplified Bible)
3Now Israel loved Joseph more than all his children because he was the son of his old age, and he made him a [distinctive] long tunic with sleeves. 4But when his brothers saw that their father loved [Joseph] more than all of his brothers, they hated him and could not say, Peace [in friendly greeting] to him or speak peaceably to him. 5Now Joseph had a dream and he told it to his brothers, and they hated him still more. 6And he said to them, Listen now and hear, I pray you, this dream that I have dreamed: 7We [brothers] were binding sheaves in the field, and behold, my sheaf arose and stood upright, and behold, your sheaves stood round about my sheaf and bowed down! 8His brothers said to him, Shall you indeed reign over us? Or are you going to have us as your subjects and dominate us? And they hated him all the more for his dreams and for what he said. 9But Joseph dreamed yet another dream and told it to his brothers [also]. He said, See here, I have dreamed again, and behold, [this time not only] eleven stars [but also] the sun and the moon bowed down and did reverence to me! 10And he told it to his father [as well as] his brethren. But his father rebuked him and said to him, What is the meaning of this dream that you have dreamed? Shall I and your mother and your brothers actually come to bow down ourselves to the earth and do homage to you?
Over the last two years those that know me know that I have been through a lot. I suffered many things, at the hand of different people, and circumstances. They would be quick to tell you that my heart has been broken throughout my life by friends, spouse, family and co-workers alike. Strangely enough they said I never ceased to see God’s ability even in my greatest seasons of pain and discomfort. I’ve cried, I’ve prayed, I’ve even grown weak and I must admit that I have even complained; sometimes about the pains in my heart, in my body, sometimes one’s that were a part of my life and relationships. But even in the midst I remained faithful to God as He remained faithful to me. Don’t get me wrong this is not a bragging session, this is a testament to God’s faithfulness and His ability to keep anyone (even me) looking to Him and seeing themselves even where they have no idea how and why they would be there. He gave me dreams and visions of days to come even when I did not understand what they meant or could mean to me.
It is in our brokenness, our weakness and in our inability, that God becomes His strongest and He works at His best. He is able to show us things that we may not be able to comprehend, but that we will just receive because we are too weary and too tired from the battle to do anything else besides say okay I see it even if I have no clue what it means. In most cases we recognize that we don’t have a clue how can may come to be, but if it is to get done, that God will have to do it. I have a brother and a close friend that have believed for years for one thing. Although times have been tough, set back after set back have come and adversity, broken promises and unmet expectations have become routine of sorts and they have both been reduced to tears and sometimes fears they have never lost their ability to dream and see themselves in the place that they have been believing God for all along. When God is the dream giving in the middle of the driest desert you can bloom. When God is the dream giver in the midst of the stormiest of times He will show you the sun. When God is the dream giver He will cause you to dream even when your heart is broken and your well is dry.
Don’t think it strange when you find yourself in one of the most controversial, adverse, uncomfortable places and you begin to dream. Don’t even think it strange if it makes little no sense to you, because just like Joseph, your dreams are a foreshadowing of your purpose, your place and God’s perspective for you. May not be today or even tomorrow, but it will come to past, if God continues to be the dream given in your brokenness!
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