Today’s Devotional Is Written Through The Strength Of The Holy Spirit By One Amazing Young Woman On A Journey With Her God:
Tracy Koweh
In Spite of Who I Am……
Romans 8:1 (Amplified Bible)
1THEREFORE, [there is] now no condemnation (no adjudging guilty of wrong) for those who are in Christ Jesus, who live [and] walk not after the dictates of the flesh, but after the dictates of the Spirit.(A)
Today’s message in the music simply comes from the title of Beenie Man’s song “Who am I”. This past few weeks have been a very strange balancing act for me. The deeper the word God was giving me, the greater temptation that was around me. Of course looking back in hind sight now, I see it so clearly in the spirit.
After the whole Kelly incident, I was determined to start over. Pick up from where I was and move forward……….problem was, I didn’t let God take over completely. I gave him control over the areas I wanted Him to handle and I took the rest into my own hands. Needless to say I made some huge mistakes these past few months. Some I’ve learned from, and some were pure disobedience. But the part that got me, was that God never turn away me from. Each time I came back, He was there.
My pastor preached several sermons on no condemnation……but it almost just gave me a new and fresh slate each week to dirty up again. Then it happened. Last week I had to write two of the hardest blogs of this journey. They were hard because they caused me to feel every line of them. God even had me send it out to people who had no idea I wrote a blog……yet alone an inspirational one. Well, this past weekend I almost fell again. I didn’t. I got as close to the edge as possible, but I caught myself. I had somewhere along the way, decided to not take his grace and mercy for granted and then I got the email that broke me down.
The email was from one of my “non-church” friends. One of my girls who knew the crazy side of me, and so it made me vunerable to send her the blogs last week. She wrote to tell me how much the message had touched her and that she was now ready to make some changes in her life. She had no idea how that email got the tears falling on my face. It was in that moment I realized………that in spite of my selfishness, my disobedience, my ego, and just me……..God still choose to use me. He still decided to show up and not let me hinder the blessings of others.
So today I want to say THANK YOU JEHOVAH, for not giving up on me. For loving me when I didn’t realize I hadn’t learned to love myself all the way. For letting me know, that although I fell down- - -I could get back up. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU. Today, let us start fresh and make a real effort to love God with all that we are, in spite of our family, friends, fame, fears and flesh.
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