God Knows Where You Are At Without A Word Being Whispered!
Psalm 139:7-16 (Amplified Bible)
7Where could I go from Your Spirit? Or where could I flee from Your presence? 8If I ascend up into heaven, You are there; if I make my bed in Sheol (the place of the dead), behold, You are there. 9If I take the wings of the morning or dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, 10Even there shall Your hand lead me, and Your right hand shall hold me. 11If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me and the night shall be [the only] light about me, 12Even the darkness hides nothing from You, but the night shines as the day; the darkness and the light are both alike to You. 13For You did form my inward parts; You did knit me together in my mother's womb. 14I will confess and praise You for You are fearful and wonderful and for the awful wonder of my birth! Wonderful are Your works, and that my inner self knows right well. 15My frame was not hidden from You when I was being formed in secret [and] intricately and curiously wrought [as if embroidered with various colors] in the depths of the earth [a region of darkness and mystery]. 16Your eyes saw my unformed substance, and in Your book all the days [of my life] were written before ever they took shape, when as yet there was none of them.
Today something happened after our morning intercession, when my mother opened her eyes she looked at me and placed her hand on my chest and began to pray for my shattered heart to mend. Then she said, and no, your living and giving is not in vain. Tears ran down, my face, I had not spoken these words to anyone. I had been pressing in and doing. Continuing to live and give but I had not even spoken the truth of my feelings to God. Knowing that often ministry is birthed out of pains and trials, I did not question God’s will nor did I complain. I had decided that this time I would press, pray, help and minister my way through these moments of pain, struggle and recovery.
It seems in the past couple of years I have experienced many disappointments, hurts, struggles and pains. I would normally need to talk it through, with someone, whether it was God, my mother or both. But this time for some reason, I felt as if I had no ability to speak on what I have been going through, not because of shame, ( because there was nothing shameful about it, only hurtful) but because I sat and asked myself when do I stop talking and just wait to hear. This time I did. I was wondering in times past where was God in all the things I had been through, I had even asked why would He allow it if I was trying to do what was right. Often talking it out was my way of trying to identify my whereabouts and letting God know where I was at and how I felt. This time I couldn’t speak because the depth of the pain took my ability to speak, so instead I did what I knew to do which was prayed with and for others, and kept living as if nothing in my life was out of order. I walked in the belief daily that although nothing was changing that God knew it all!
God always knows where we are located, what we need and how we are feeling. Often times we get to a place in our relationship with Him where He wants us to know whether He seems present or not He is there. He wants us to have enough confidence in Him that we realize that He is going to guide us even when we cannot see well enough to get where we need to be. God wants us to have such faith in Him, to know that He can hear our heart through the deepest pains, disappointments, anguish, struggle and test. It is when we can be still and know that He is God that He can give us, what we have never had before a deeper knowledge of who He is and how much He loves and cares for us. Sometimes it is in the most deafening silence and the darkest of times that God will do His best work!
Keep believing, keep trusting and keep moving, because regardless of whether you can see a clearing or not you can never get there standing still. God knows what you are going through and He can see the heart of your matter and the thoughts that weigh on your mind. Sometimes it is simply not for us to say, but it is for us to know who God is to us!
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