Words Of Encouragement For Your Day (Monday 09/26/2011

Today's Words Of or our Day Written By An Anointed, Loving Young Woman: Mrs. Tracy A. Dixon

Who Messed You Up?

Today’s message in the music comes from Lil Wayne’s song  “How to Love”.  The chorus says: You had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart. Never really had luck, couldn’t never figure out. How to love. How to love. You had a lot of moments that didn’t last forever. Now you in the corner tryna put it together.
How to love.How to love.

A few weeks ago I received a call from a teenager crying her eyes out. I asked her what was wrong, and she replied she thought something was wrong with her because she didn’t know to let people in. She didn’t understand why it was so hard for her to open up and trust people. Why it almost killed her to try to express the desires and pains of her heart to people she could tell cared about her.

As I listened tears began to fill my eyes, as I was forced back into my emotional past. I was in that moment a young lady fighting through years of baggage from my adolescent years. I remember the horrible relationships the damage of earlier years allowed me to subject myself to. I remember feeling like everyone was out to get something from me, take something from me or destroy something in me. I didn’t trust easily and I replaced love with abusive/destructive relationships.  

I calmly told the young lady not to worry, that she would get past this season. Not because of any scripture I could quote at the time, but because I was a living witness. My fathers absence in my life from childhood damaged me in ways and depths that I would never come to know until I began transitioning into a young lady. My healthy turned dysfunctional relationship with mother caused baggage in me that I carried over into my adulthood.

Although I had a great relationship with God as a teen, it wasn’t until I was able to let go and be healed, that I was able to truly and fully receive God’s love first, self love second and the flawed love of others third. It wasn’t until I was able to be honest with who and what affected me that God was able to come and began to restore all that was stolen from me. Some of us can’t receive or give love to ourselves or others because we still hiding, running and covering up who messed us up. You may have been hurt, but you can be healed.  My transformation is still on going, but my process included spiritual and natural help. I had a great spiritual mother and an awesome Christian therapist help bring me up out of my dark place. Today take your future back, and let God deliver you from your past and the people who left you broken! Doesn’t matter who messed you up, God can still fix you up!!

Isaiah 57:14-19 Amplified Bible (AMP)

¹⁴And the word of One shall go forth, Cast up, cast up, prepare the way! Take up the stumbling block out of the way [of the spiritual return] of My people.  ¹⁵For thus says the high and lofty One--He Who inhabits eternity, Whose name is Holy: I dwell in the high and holy place, but with him also who is of a thoroughly penitent and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble and to revive the heart of the thoroughly penitent [bruised with sorrow for sin].  ¹⁶For I will not contend forever, neither will I be angry always, for [if I did stay angry] the spirit [of man] would faint and be consumed before Me, and [My purpose in] creating the souls of men would be frustrated.  ¹⁷Because of the iniquity of his [Judah's] covetousness and unjust gain I was angry and smote him. I hid my face and was angry, and he went on turning away and backsliding in the way of his [own willful] heart  ¹⁸I have seen his [willful] ways, but I will heal him; I will lead him also and will recompense him and restore comfort to him and to those who mourn for him.  ¹⁹Peace, peace, to him who is far off [both Jew and Gentile] and to him who is near! says the Lord; I create the fruit of his lips, and I will heal him [make his lips blossom anew with speech in thankful praise].