The More I Know The More I Realize How Much I Need
Psalm 27:7-9 Amplified Bible (AMP)
7Hear, O Lord, when I cry aloud; have mercy and be gracious to me and answer me!8You have said, Seek My face [inquire for and require My presence as your vital need]. My heart says to You, Your face (Your presence), Lord, will I seek, inquire for, and require [of necessity and on the authority of Your Word]. 9Hide not Your face from me; turn not Your servant away in anger, You Who have been my help! Cast me not off, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation!
Life’s events have a funny way of making you think. But I have found that the more I understand, and the more educated I become the more I understand how little I know and how much I need the Lord. Most people think the more knowledge that they gain; the more they can handle it on their own. I have found the exact opposite. People say that the older they get the wiser they become, I believe that is true to some degree, but it has also taught me that if I am wiser it is only from the insight given to me from God and that my abilities come only as a result of the gifts and talents that God has blessed me with and for no other reason. It is often difficult for a person who is logical and feels that they are wise or intelligent in their own right to come to God, because salvation and the operation of faith doesn’t really make sense to the natural mind. Remember Isaiah 55: says, “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord.”
I woke up this morning with a stark realization as I have times before in this journey with the Lord that I need Him. I need God not just a little bit, but I need Him like we need air to breathe and water to survive. It is not a material issue or an issue of needing Him to give me things, which I pretty sure in blatant reality we all understand we have needs in our lives that need to be met, but my need for God is more than that and I would be remiss to reduce it down to just what I need in the natural. I need Him to show me, teach me, guide me, protect me, love me and more importantly save me from myself. Save me from the bad decisions that if I let my flesh have its say I will undoubtedly make. Save me from the unwise and unsound thoughts that seek to take up residence because they stem from the place where I was shaped and born. Save me from getting in my own way and causing myself issues that would not be if I was in the will of God and holding fast to God in a way that would not allow for me to be the visible portion, but instead the Christ that lives within me.
My Grandmother used to say things to us and we would give her this look, like sure you are right; but she would reply just keep on living. I have found truth in that statement. As I have kept on living and seeking; as I have experienced more, from good to bad, pleasure to pain, I understand without God, I could not have made it or survived. I need God to right the wrongs in me. I know that as I seek and run after Him, I need for Him to be present for me, to be the light that guides my path and keeps me out of the dark places. I understand that me, myself and I standing alone, is a disaster waiting to happen, is a train wreck in progress, but with Him, that He will and does make everything beautiful in His own time. The Bibles tells us in Proverbs 9:10, “The reverent and worshipful fear of the Lord is the beginning (the chief and choice part) of Wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight and understanding.” The smarter we get the more we will know we need God and that we need to be in submission and reverence Him in our lives. The smarter we get the more we will understand that everything we need is tied up in Him alone!
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