The Challenges That Once Awaited Me
Psalm 62:1 Amplified Bible (AMP)
1 For
God alone my soul waits in silence; from Him comes my salvation.
When I first began the journey back
to me after some very difficult times in my life; this was a season in which, I
had allowed people to define me, and take my value, discount me, and make the
blame for much if not everything that was wrong, I was faced with challenges,
and these challenges seemed to greet me daily, because I was burdened with
depression and self-esteem issues. I was
challenged with being able to overcome physical, financial and emotional issues
that had begun to affect my worship and my ability to see God even in the midst
of the situation that was then my life. I
was challenged even in my thinking to see anything that could be; because of
what I had begun to believe was. I
remember a line in an old spiritual that I never understood as a child that
said, “We are challenged at every hand.”
In that season I understood all too clearly because it was my personal
circumstance, it was the station in which I seemed to be stranded at. To be honest in that season, my life felt
like one huge challenge, it didn’t feel much like a life at all; it felt like a
weight and a cruel joke that was being played upon me, I would have sworn I was
being punked.
As I walked in from a workout this
morning and began to think of all that I had to do today, I felt it would be a
challenge to meet all of my obligations.
But instead of feeling as if I didn’t have much of a life, I could clearly
see that I was full of life, and what challenged me in those days were not my
challenge today. I could feel this way today because during the darkest hours,
days and months of my life I had to learn to get alone with God and get by
myself and in the stillness and silence of those times, I learned to wait on
God and learn that even in His silence that He was there, present, and very
real. I learned that a challenge did not
have to be a challenging, if I would just lean on God, His understanding His
word and His will. If I would only trust
Him He would turn my ashes into beauty and He would give me life abundantly and
joy unspeakable. You see it has been in
the stillness of the night and in the presence of God alone that I was and am
able to find myself, because it was God alone who has created me, and not me,
myself or anyone else, for that matter. It was in the sanctity and the
fellowship with God alone that I found my salvation and I found myself. It was there that I discovered that no matter
what had happened in my life and who said they were walking out of my life or
who did not love me that God did and He does and that was more than enough.
Believe it or not God is not just
enough of what we need Him to be in the midst of a challenging circumstance, He
is more than the circumstance. Even when we are challenged we do not have to
necessarily be in a challenging position, because God has the ability to be all
that is necessary to make our challenges a place where we find ourselves and receive
God’s salvation, love and deliverance to become someone that rises out of the ashes
to become not just the beauty of His holiness, but one of the very elect and
chosen of God; a person that God will
use to touch the masses and become a living testimony of His grace, favor and
His faithfulness towards us. Don’t let
the challenge become all that you see standing before you, so that it
overwhelms you and causes you to feel as if you can’t. Be reminded that you can do all things
through Christ who strengthens you and He has given you the ability to make a
challenge into a place of change!
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