Written By My Beautiful God daughter Tracy Koweh
I Just Can’t Stop Loving You
Jeremiah 31:3 (New Living Translation)
3 Long ago the Lord said to Israel:
“I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love.
With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.
This week will be Message in the Music Marathon. I’m not ending the series just yet, but God gave me so many songs this morning doing our prayer time, that I decided to dedicate this week to just that. Today’s message comes from the great Micheal Jackson and his song, “I Just Can’t Stop Loving You.”
Last Friday Lisa wrote a beautiful blog about a conversation that we shared earlier in the evening about a veryspecial man in my life. What she did not say in the blog is that I am actually no longer in that type of relationship with him anymore. He is still very much the love of my life, and we do still talk every day and every night but right now our hopes and dreams for the future are just not the same, so as hard as it was we agreed it was time to let it go.
Well, that was two weeks ago today and I have no idea how to stop loving this man. No matter how much I feel he may have lacked or wronged me at times, my love for him goes so much further than that. No matter how scared I was at times for the closest we shared and the attachment I saw growing between him and my daughter, my love for him was stronger than that. I’ve never really been one to dwell on a relationship gone south. I’ve always picked up and moved on, but its just something about this one that I can’t.
The part of the conversation that Lisa left out [probably to stay alive :o)], was when I shared I don’t know how to not love him. I don’t know how not to wake up and want to call him first thing in the morning. I don’t’ know how to not call him first when something great or something terrible happens in my life. I don’t’ know how to plan my future and not see him in it. Lisa jokes that we are the strangest “broke-up” couple she has ever known, and if others knew they would think the same thing, but that’s because they can’t understand the bond between us. I’ve been married twice but he was honestly my first real love. The first man I have thought was truly worth hanging in there for. Where I am weak he is strong and vice versa. We complimented each other like peanut butter and jelly :o).
So I asked God what was I suppose to take from all of this. How was I suppose to pick up and start over, and God showed me how so many of us have this same type of love relationship with him. No matter how many times we mess up, He doesn’t know how to not love us. He doesn’t know how to not care about His children. He doesn’t know how to not give up on us. His grace and His mercy saves us over and over and over again. Sometimes we appreciate Him, and sometimes we don’t. Sometimes we are selfish and ungodly, but He still blesses us with His gift of life. Even we when don’t see eye to eye with Him in regards to the course of our destiny, He loves us. When we make the choice to turn our back on Him and do our own thing, He is always there with open arms to receive us back. It’s a beautiful thing to have a love so great, and such a tragedy to let it slip away because we don’t have the faith to step out and trust.
This week may you go a little bit deeper in your love relationship with the Father. It doesn’t matter what you’ve done, thought, or said- - - - - - -God’s love will always be a simple request away. Step out on faith and let Him be the one you just can’t stop loving today, and watch your life be enriched like your mind wouldn’t believe.
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