Today's Devotional Written By The Powerful Voice and Spirit Of Tracy A. Dixon
Let the Strong say "I AM WEAK"
Amplified Bible (AMP) Matthew 11:28-30
28Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. [I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls.] 29Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle (meek) and humble (lowly) in heart, and you will find rest (relief and ease and refreshment and recreation and blessed quiet) for your souls. 30For My yoke is wholesome (useful, good--not harsh, hard, sharp, or pressing, but comfortable, gracious, and pleasant), and My burden is light and easy to be borne.
I am one of those people who outsiders observe and say, "You are so strong". Of course my strength comes from the Lord, but I am still very much human. Sometimes its hard to be able to breakdown, because expect you to be super Christian all the time. One of my favorite gospel songs in this season is Caree Isaac's In the Middle of It. One of the lines says "I'm just like you. You cut I will bleed. I got wants. Just as well as I got needs". Too many times people see Christians as this pillar of strength that never fails, makes mistakes, gives up at times, questions God, asks why, wonders if it worth it or gets weak.
Well, lets set the record straight. I am a Christian. I have bills, issues, problems, and family drama just like non-believers. I hurt, I cry, I have pain, and my body goes under attack just like a non-believer. I have days I want to give up, give in and throw in the towel. At times I am mistreated, abused, talked about, lied on and lied to. I get overwhelmed and I have self esteem issues at time. I am a Christian........but I am also human.
This past year, God has really stretched my faith and flesh. Some tests I passed, others I am re-taking right now. I survived my second miscarriage only to have God set me up to minister to someone who had just aborted a pregnancy I would have cherished to have. I survived a house fire and being separated from my husband, who is my rock and best friend. As if that wasn't enough for one year, God had me minister and pray for a couple who openly stabbed us in the back and caused us a loss of over $1000.
This year seemed to be filled with attack after attack, but yet I am still standing. There have been days where I have felt my weakest and the last thing I wanted someone to tell me was how strong I was. I just lost my baby. My house caught on fire. In this moment, I am weak Lord. In this moment the very life is being choked out of me God. In this moment, I am asking why me Lord? But hold on just a little while longer..........there is one great difference between me and the non-believer.........in Him I find strength!!! The joy of the Lord is my strength. Greater is He that is in me, than he that is in this world. I am the head and not the tail. I am above and not beneath. I am MORE than a conqueror. I am a survivor. So remember, Christians too have moments of weakness, but they only make us stronger!!!
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