Losing Control And Loving It…
Jeremiah 10:23 (Amplified Bible)
23O Lord [pleads Jeremiah in the name of the people], I know that [the determination of] the way of a man is not in himself; it is not in man [even in a strong man or in a man at his best] to direct his [own] steps.
On Wednesday night as I was leaving the house, my daughter asked me, was I really going to Bible study? I replied, “Yes, Lord I have to go, I need to go, I need a right now word.” She said “but mommy you have been sick for almost a week, I don’t feel like you should go.” I told her, “everything I was depended on it.” When I entered Bible study, I was struggling to keep my emotions from taking over, and falling prey to all that I had been feeling for a week, the overwhelming feeling that I had been fighting that had caused my body to spin into a place of turmoil of its own. As Praise and Worship started, the song the Worship leader chose was “I give myself away, by William McDowell. The words to the song are: “I give myself away, I give myself away, So You can use me, I give myself away, I give myself away, So You can use me: Verse 1: Here I am, Here I stand, Lord, my life is in your hands, Lord, I’m longing to see, Your desires revealed in me, I give myself away. Verse 2: Take my heart, Take my life, As a living sacrifice, All my dreams all my plans, Lord I place them in your hands.” And then the Worship leader transitioned into, “My life is not my own, but it belongs to you, to worship you alone.” In those moments the Holy Spirit began to ease the pain of the week, but then I heard deep within my heart, I thought you said you trusted me with your very life.” All I could do is weep uncontrollably with uplifted hands, in total surrender to God. You see I had given myself away, but I had tried to take it back, when pain hit my heart. But in those moments God gently reminded me, that my life was not my own, I belonged to Him and that He alone knew what I needed to force me to grow and what I need to bring me closer to Him and into obedience to His will and way.
I was texting my sister earlier today and she was struggling with an event that was about to take place in her life. I told her, what was to be would be and what was not to be would not be, but what was God speaking to her about that situation? And then I gave her what God had given me a day before, “My life is not my own.” Her reply was “then that means I have no control over this right?” She then added, “that is the part I don’t like.” All I could do was chuckle, because I understood all too well what she was talking about and going through. We don’t want to lose control, we don’t want to really give ourselves away, and that would mean that we really have to trust God. That we cannot just talk it, but we have to walk it out. We have to be living faith in action. Giving up control means that we understand that we are surrendering all of who we are to God and allowing Him to mold and make our lives to what He would have them to be, not us doing it our way. It is ensuring that our will, our souls are yielded and brought under subjection to the will of Christ. For so many of us, we want the Blessings of God, but we do not want the submission to God. We want God to rescue us and answer our prayers, but we struggling with losing control, of our lives to God, and really loving it. In those moments on Wednesday night I learned a valuable lesson, which was to lose control meant to gain, perspective and to gain peace.
Today you may be struggling with an issue, a person, an illness, a circumstance, or any number of things, but if you could just see that you cannot change one bit of what is going on right now in your life if you tried. You’d understand that as long as you say you will follow Christ, that there is a cost and that price tag is you and allowing Him to do the work, in you, through you and around you. Yes we are responsible to do some things, but those things are in compliance and obedience to Christ. Give up the control of your life to one who gave His life that you can really live, if you do you will find that you are loving it, because stress, worry and anxiety will become a thing that does not dominate, control or even destroy you, because you have an understanding that God, your Father who loves you so intently is taking care of all of the details of your life and truly He is working it out for your good and His Glory!
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