Being Favored In The Eyes Of God...
Job 22:27-29 (Amplified Bible)
27You will make your prayer to Him, and He will hear you, and you will pay your vows. 28You shall also decide and decree a thing, and it shall be established for you; and the light [of God's favor] shall shine upon your ways. 29When they make [you] low, you will say, [There is] a lifting up; and the humble person He lifts up and saves.
This past Friday was my birthday. As usual “I” had no plans for myself, but my Spiritual daughter, Tracy, had other designs and plans. She conspired with my immediate family members to ensure they had no plans set in stone for me on Friday, and then she put her plan into motion…You see normally my birthday is an event that I celebrate by giving thanks, reflection and usually sowing into my family, and close loved ones. I normally try not to make a fuss. Last year when I turned 45 I was very ill and what people wanted to do to celebrate was hindered because of my illness, but this year Tracy was on a mission! My daughter D’Aja was my time keeper and she was to ensure I was dressed and ready to go with my bags packed with things such a make-up, hair accessories. I was to be dressed in what was supposed to be a cute outfit and ready to go… That was all I knew. At five minute to two my daughter was texting and receiving phone calls to see if I was on schedule, and rushing me, all I could do was laugh and go along with the plan. At two I was blind folded and lead out the door. When I was unmasked there was a white stretch limo in front of our house, and a driver standing by the door waiting on me. I got in the back of the limo after a minute of pure shock, and talking to my spiritual daughter. I began to take a moment and thank God and I simply asked “God who am I that you would be mindful of me?” I cried all the way to the day spa where I received a massage and a facial and then I was taken to a beautiful restaurant on Virginia Beach for dinner…My heart was full all night. As I arrived home and undressed after answering everyone’s questions as to how my night was. I climbed in bed and bowed my head in prayer, and asked with a tear stained face, “My God who am I that you are mindful of me.” My weekend did not end there for my family blessed me and sowed into me. They took me to a beautiful restaurant and blessed me abundantly.
My Spiritual daughter said to me, it was all that I had sowed into her by my living in front of her and the things I has sown into her asking nothing in return. My family said they knew they wanted to do something special for me because I am always taking care of everyone, and thinking of everyone but myself. It was in this weekend that I began to see that God’s favor was upon me in spite of so many things and in spite of so many people that had done things to intentional hurt me or to try to destroy me. But it had nothing to do with the goodness of who I am, and everything to do with being a servant to God and allowing him to order my steps, but not just my steps, but my ways. Even when it did not feel good, even when I was sacrificing, even when it did not make sense I did what He instructed me to do, through His Word, and that still small voice that unction’s me daily. I began to see that my life had very little to do with me and everything to do with His will being manifested through me to help others; to sow, lead and show them to Christ, to the best of my ability. You see in the past 10 years or so, Romans 12:1 and 2 Corinthians 6:17, became the Rahma word and my life’s mission and existence. No I do not get it perfect every day, but I strive to allow God’s love to resonate through me even when it is not my will.
Some of you reading this know my story in its entirety and others of you don’t, but in spite of what is known and not known; where I have been and with what I have been through, I should be unwilling to do anything for anybody. I should be so shut off and guarded, I should be unwilling to love or to trust, many people say I should not be in my right mind, but in spite of it all God Favors me! He favors me because with His help and guidance I have forgiven, I have asked for forgiveness. I have thanked people for their time, the pain and the betrayal when people thought I was crazy, because God allowed me to see that it was all for my making and there were lessons to be learned and dependencies to be broken. Yes, God will favor you when you do what He deems pleasing in His sight, not the sight of man, or even in our own minds for our own benefit. When He sees that no matter what, as Job stated “though He slay me yet will I trust Him,” it is then when God’s favor will be released into your life. You see it comes with a cost, are you willing to pay the price?
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