Words Of Encouragement To Start The Day (Tuesday 06/01/10)

Today’s Devotional Written By A Young Lady That May be Challenged But Not Defeated: Tracy Koweh (Soon To Be Dixon)

Letting Go, When God is Still Holding On

1 Peter 5:6-11 (New Living Translation)

⁶ So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor. ⁷ Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. ⁸ Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. ⁹ Stand firm against him, and be strong in your faith. Remember that your Christian brothers and sisters^[a] all over the world are going through the same kind of suffering you are. ¹⁰ In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation. ¹¹ All power to him forever! Amen.

So I wrote "time to go to war" yesterday and satan took my seriously. I woke up with the weight of the world and this wedding on me, to the point that I passed out in Home Depot last night. The stress and uncertainty was beginning to break me down. The words of doubters had begun to take root and grow. The unseen answers and unfelt presence of God had finally become too much for my faith to push through, but God.

I had thought of canceling the wedding and eloping. Looked at cutting cost by cutting guests and bridal party participants, but I couldn't find peace. I know what God spoke to me and how very vital our wedding day would be, but the days were short and the expenses high. It was as if God gave us an assignment and dropped out of school. Then the house was still falling apart. Wednesday the electricity decided to play hide and seek. Some light switches worked, and some didn't. The tub decided to say 'tag I'm it' and now it takes forever to drain. Then the roof went from patch job, to complete renovation.

So needless to say when we got to Home Depot I couldn't take it anymore. I just fell out, but in that brief moment I realized God was working it out. The parts came close to $600 but after Shane's discount it took it down to $506. The guy working on the roof is only charging us $400....close to $600 in savings from the $1500 insurance company quote. Early Monday morning I posted a message on facebook telling God we needed a photographer, DJ and limo and before I started this blog, we had won a $3000 photo package for $1035, but then got a message from our original photographer that she would give us a better package and for cheaper. We booked two DJ'S for a longer time frame and it cost less then the price of hiring of one.

My point is that sometimes as humans, our flesh gets overwhelmed and we give up. We question things God has promised us, because all we see are our problems. But I'm so very grateful on today, that although I let go for a moment, my God held me tighter. He didn't let my lack of faith block my blessings. He didn't let me stay down for long, He knew I had hit "all that I can bare". Had I been in a place to pray about everything and worry about nothing, the enemy would not have been able to come in and let loose. But my God is bigger than my doubt, better than my disbelief and badder than any demon in hell. So for those in a crazy season right now, hold on. When you feel it’s too much, that means you are still holding on to it. Don't let go of God, just give it to God, and let Him do it. His way, His time, His bill!!!