Today's Devotional Written By The Bold And Courageous: Tracy A. Dixon
Why is it So Hard to Trust Him?
Matthew 14:31 Amplified Bible (AMP)
31Instantly Jesus reached out His hand and caught and held him, saying to him, O you of little faith, why did you doubt?
Today’s message in the music comes from Keyshia Cole’s song “Sent From Heaven”. The first line of the chorus says; I wanna be the one who you BELIEVE in your heart is sent from heaven. The key word in this song is believe. According to Webster online, the definition for the ACTION word believe is; 1. have a firm religious faith , 2. accept something as true, genuine, or real, and 3. have a firm conviction.
In my daily walk with the Lord I find it so much easier to believe God for the bigger blessings; waking me up, keeping my mind, and protecting my home. But when it comes to the small day to day needs, it’s so much harder to trust Him. I guess it like, when you wake up you realize that He’s answered that prayer and your manifestation is there, but when you have to walk things out and it feels like God is too busy for such a small request in the scheme of things you could be asking for…it’s easy to get discouraged. Last week Shane’s chief reversed His approved leave for us to go our couple’s cruise next week and I have been battling mixed emotions. I trusted God last week to turn it around in the midnight hour. We sowed financial seeds. Named it and claimed it. Bound this and released that. We prayed and called down the heavens, and still nothing. Then the icing on the cake is that we won’t be able to cancel or get our money back, despite the information we were given before we ever put any money down.
So this week is it, I have no idea what God is up too and I’m okay with admitting that. I’m afraid to purchase travel insurance because I feel like it’s an insult to God. I’m afraid to have Shane go up the chain of command for fear of hell to pay when he returns to work. I’m afraid to ask “man” for help, because I don’t want God to think I’ve lost faith in His abilities to move mountains, and I don’t want anybody to steal His glory. But as I sit and write this, I’m most afraid of missing what God is trying to do. Maybe there is a reason we’re not suppose to be on that boat. Maybe there is a greater blessing waiting on this side of the water. The $1700 is gone, whether we go or not, so no need to stress over it. If I truly believe Him, He’ll make sure we get it back 100 fold. The point is that no matter how great God has been, we all find ourselves stuck in the faith fight at times. Jesus had a few moments of fear right before the cross, but in the end He trusted the Father. So whether it’s the outcome we would like next week or not, we have determined in our hearts to keep believing. Through the tears we will continue to praise. What is a disappointment to us, may just be God’s greatest destiny set up. Don’t give up or stop believing, God has been too good and you’ve come too far to turn back now. Faith believes beyond how we feel, how it looks, and how it turns out!!
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