Words of Encouragement (Wednesday 8/3/2011)

Written by Tracy Dixon

If You Really Knew Me

Psalm 51:1-3 New Living Translation (NLT)

 ¹ Have mercy on me, O God, because of your unfailing love. Because of your great compassion, blot out the stain of my sins. ² Wash me clean from my guilt. Purify me from my sin. ³ For I recognize my rebellion; it haunts me day and night.

A few weekends ago I was watching a very positive show on MTV called If You Really Knew Me. A high school selects 100 students to attend what’s known as Challenge Day. The students are a mix of jocks, cheerleaders, outcasts, homosexuals and over achievers. They are put in one big room and given the opportunity to finish the statement If you really knew me. What’s amazing is that by the end of the hour, the students are able to see how much they all really have in common with each other. They are given a mandate at the end to be the change their school needs.

You never know whose life you could be saving when you tell the truth about where God has truly brought you from. Most people see the Me that God has raised up today, but few knew of all that I have had to come through to get to this place. If you really knew me…..you would know that I attempted suicide in high school trying to escape the pressures of home. You would know that although I am a woman, I am not close to my biological mother who lives 15 minutes away and that I am finally at peace with that. You would know that I am different from most of my family and at times I feel like the family outcast. You would know that before my kingdom marriage, I was divorced two times. If you really knew me…you would know that before I turned 21 yrs old I was fighting for my life in a hospital because I was in an abusive marriage. You would know that God protected me from STD’s and death when my husband cheated on me. You would know that although I miscarried one child this year, I miscarried twins in 2006. If you really knew me, you would know that I battled depression and self-esteem most of my life, although I’ve always been popular and an outgoing person….If you really knew me.

Christians are so afraid to tell the truth about the demons of their past, that we have generations and generations of young Christians repeating our same mistakes. God can’t work on you, until you can look in the mirror and see the real you. I’m a living witness that the blood works. I’ve cried a lot of nights, fasted a lot of days but I’m healed and whole now, and still going through the process. I have an amazing husband and a miracle baby girl who makes my day every day. I have an external support system that is not made up of the usual suspects, but without them in my life I would be lost. Let God lead you today to share the real you with somebody else. The life you might save, just might be yours. Your future is waiting on you to let go of you past. Celebrate all the trials in your life, and know that if you let Him, God will work it out.